how are you

I always wonder what are you doing now? Have you eaten? What have you been up to? How is your work going? Who are you dating with now? But to know all this by myself, is really hurting myself. They asked me to stop everything that has got to do with you.I simply can't.You know, we have been through alot together. You left a bigger impact in my life.. this is the biggest.I wasn't this hurt when you left me last year. I have to disappear myself. I don't want to do this. Neither do i want to hurt myself. But you always want the best and chose this way.. You left me hurt by myself,alone..had no one to turn too.. Everytime i find you to help me but this time round, i am with myself. I feel so stupid and dump like you said i am..to actually msg you and got the cheeks to ask you out. To the stupidest ive been is, you chose to reject me and go on with the other party.. if you love me, or still want me back.. you would have chosen me. Ive seen alot of this so i assume, you no longer and will never love me.. You believe this way,don't you..

Ya ALLAH, Sebesar besar kesilapan aku sebagai manusia,besarkan lagi lah kebahagian seseorang insan yang aku sayangi dan lindunginya dengan segala rintangan yang akan melanda dirinya.Walaupun aku dicacinya dan dibencinya, merekalah yang pernah melihat kehidupan aku dengan menjaga aku sehingga aku sempurna. Dengan engkau aku bertaktah, dengan engkau aku mengadu.. dengarla rayuanku untuk menjaga kami, dengan keluarganya..Sesungguhnya akulah yang bersalah, tunjukkanlah perjalanan yang betul. Jika aku yang berdosa, ampunkan la aku dan maafkan la aku.AMIN.