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i have come to think that i cant have my own happiness. khayrul needs his own happiness and that is not with me. I have seen him going through hard times, happy times.I can be very upset now but time will heal as we go along and i will keep trying to a stronger person.
I dont know if i will meet someone who is just like him, again. I hope there is.I dont even know if i gonna fall in love again.This could be how he felt last time. I knew this would come by cause i didnt have a good start the first day of the year. I hope to be your sister still.Now i have no one to confide to, i will get myself a bear on my birthday. I have no one to celebrate my birthday with but im okay. as long as i get to celebrate yours and see you happy getting a surprise boot and psp from me.
Khayrul, as much and long i type this. i hope you will get yourself a life long partner. Who will make you happy, who will be there when you in need them, who will go through challenges with you. i will just be your shadow, watch you from afar. I want to be there on your biggest day.Dont forget me.

i will send an angel to watch you sleep, drink and eat. i want my angel to protect you from any harm of sadness. :)