angsty

I just reached home last night before 10pm.

We ended our holidays by going for wedding. I should have followed what he said. To go home with them because i had a tiff with my closest aunt the day after. day before, i was fucked up because i lost my hp. i was seacrhing up and down for it and the next thing i know is, its in her bag and didnt even know it. who else can it be?? make me worry for nothing. I was thinking how to pay bills and such.. and how am i gonna find that money to buy a phone. bonus is still far away; july. I think i gonna hold Singtel bill first and pay my debt for courts and termination line for m1. stupid M1. stated negative but ended up terminating when its supposed to be september. idiot.

I was very upset with my family because they never think of how my grandmother is supposed to go home when theres no one left at that place. another idiot. the distance is not even 1 or 2 km. i hold on to my tears. they only think of going back because it is very hot and journey. fucking shit. regret for not saving money and take license for good.