It's been too long that i was left hanging. month has passed and i didnt not keep track.
you're such a nice friend whom i can't let go of.. but i want you to find me if there's something going on wrong. i will be there.
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
i dont think i have to
So you no longer ask me out. must have been busy with someone. I guess you must have slept with her as well.
Town , Swensen's and bowling yesterday!
This guy cheat my feeling because the plan didnt happen. So went with plan B. That was an impromptu outing.
shit happened! WHAT HAPPENED TO BOWLING DAYS??!! WHY IS IT NOW ALL ZERO!!??
and i dont understand why must you be so hard to punch me on ??and what am i?punching bag?? try doing it to you beloved gf la
Town , Swensen's and bowling yesterday!
This guy cheat my feeling because the plan didnt happen. So went with plan B. That was an impromptu outing.
shit happened! WHAT HAPPENED TO BOWLING DAYS??!! WHY IS IT NOW ALL ZERO!!??
and i dont understand why must you be so hard to punch me on ??and what am i?punching bag?? try doing it to you beloved gf la
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
is it worth waiting for
At times I just gave up but at times I ask myself to give it a try but he always kicked me away. I feel so useless. Am I a boring companion? He will just scold me as and when he feels like it.I'm not a rubbish to be treated this way. What is it that I am lack of? It seems to be Im lack of everything, everything that I have done is not enough. At all time, I try to please you. At times I feel like a dog by the way you treat me. Have you forgotten everything good about me that you seems to remember all the bad stuffs.?
I'm all crushed. Again and again, I cry endlessly. Don't you know it's tough being a girl.All I ever wanted is you. If you could be least ego, I would sacrifice all the pain.Indeed, i have been sacrificing so much for you.
Please get my msg everytime.I miss your touch terribly..
I'm all crushed. Again and again, I cry endlessly. Don't you know it's tough being a girl.All I ever wanted is you. If you could be least ego, I would sacrifice all the pain.Indeed, i have been sacrificing so much for you.
Please get my msg everytime.I miss your touch terribly..
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
Monday, April 26, 2010
bad bad bad apple
I had a tough time at work thinking and wondering about all stuffs. I really lost my locker key this time round and I had to skip my meal because I had no money with me. I just slept and continue with work. Was really thirsty but I dont like to borrow other ppl's money. I'm hoping for may to end soon. They say whoever work for a year would get extra 1.2k. I want to have license and I want to clear my bills if possoble.
Last two days i told my mom how nice to have my own house.. she said if only im 21.. i seek for permission to have my own house on my 21st birthday.. she didnt promise but she somehow agree ro it. Im gonna work hard.I wish i had a child with me to accompany me eventhough i have no husband.. hahaha. how wonderful to have someone by you.
Rephrasing to his sentences, would it be nice if theres someone to hug you..
because at this point of time i feel so lonely and feel like tearing..
such a bad bad bad day.. i search for my key high and low but still i couldnt find it.. maybe it reflects on my life.
things that has gone will never come back...
Last two days i told my mom how nice to have my own house.. she said if only im 21.. i seek for permission to have my own house on my 21st birthday.. she didnt promise but she somehow agree ro it. Im gonna work hard.I wish i had a child with me to accompany me eventhough i have no husband.. hahaha. how wonderful to have someone by you.
Rephrasing to his sentences, would it be nice if theres someone to hug you..
because at this point of time i feel so lonely and feel like tearing..
such a bad bad bad day.. i search for my key high and low but still i couldnt find it.. maybe it reflects on my life.
things that has gone will never come back...
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
weaknesses
I have so many things to share, to tell and to cry about.
but i need to more time.
i wanted to ask you for a hug. i wanted to hold ur hand or shoulder as i talk it out but i know you will surely feel something is not right.
now, im crying knowing everything is too late
but i need to more time.
i wanted to ask you for a hug. i wanted to hold ur hand or shoulder as i talk it out but i know you will surely feel something is not right.
now, im crying knowing everything is too late
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
Sunday, April 11, 2010
who is there to help find myself back cause i am lost eversince you left.
This is going to be a long post ever
Two days before my birthday, Amali was very impromptu to come and fetch me at work with bike. WHAT THE HELL was on his mind. Everyone knows I got fear riding a bike.On my mind was, what if my dad saw me? what if he hit someone or another driver? would I flung? where would I hit? A pole? or Drop in the drain? Or worst roll over on another driver's car? ahahaha! See how paranoid I am. I am someone who is friendly and easy to befriend with, Although my status is single, I will act rationale-ly. I don't need to hug him unless I gonna fall back * it happened when I was a pillion of Khay* . That's when the fear came by.Otherwise, I just hold tightly to the handle at the back of the seat.Shit okay! My butt was cramp. ahaahhaah.
So the plan was to celebrate my birthday at Zouk/Attica/Zirca/Supperclub but at the end, we decided to go zouk. We went on 09.04.10 @11.55pm. Hisyam waited for me under my block. Cabbed to Khatib and meet the rest. On that day itself, I kept looking at my hp, Was expecting him to call or msg to bring me out. Makan at least? but I received from someone else instead.On that night itself approximately @ 12md, he called to wish me a happy birthday and he started to blabbering. I wanted to talk longer but I reminded myself to stop because I was afraid.So he didn't ask me how was my day or didn't ask me out on my birthday. I was hoping but I more or less want it to be surprise but nothing.So Zouk was pack with humans and fishes and zombies. We just dance on our own.I simply love the breeze okay! sudden blurness! ahaha!I didnt really fancy those songs that much. Went up and down. Phuture and zouk. Phuture was rnb. nice songs but i wished i was spending it with him.
HOME at last ard 0345 AM, Open the door and i saw dad and mom was lying on the floor ; electric was not working. shit right?? i wanted to pee, its a good thing my hp got light.Manage to take a nap for 15 mins and out again to work. shit. It was really a bummer cause I forget to bring my wallet and also ATM card. Good was I had coins with me. Tea and bun for breakfast. Tea and biscuit for lunch. Okay, Work was hell tiring and I wasn't surprise at all cause I know how my partner is like. &&& yeah, my stomach was growling and making noise.
I managed to sleep for 30mins and off to seletar dam. Me, my mom, cik mis and uncle. All the while, i was looking at the road.. hoping to see him. I cried silently. haiz. again the topic was about me and you. maybe i went too deep in the sea.
THIS IS HOW I CELEBRATED MY 20TH. <3
Two days before my birthday, Amali was very impromptu to come and fetch me at work with bike. WHAT THE HELL was on his mind. Everyone knows I got fear riding a bike.On my mind was, what if my dad saw me? what if he hit someone or another driver? would I flung? where would I hit? A pole? or Drop in the drain? Or worst roll over on another driver's car? ahahaha! See how paranoid I am. I am someone who is friendly and easy to befriend with, Although my status is single, I will act rationale-ly. I don't need to hug him unless I gonna fall back * it happened when I was a pillion of Khay* . That's when the fear came by.Otherwise, I just hold tightly to the handle at the back of the seat.Shit okay! My butt was cramp. ahaahhaah.
So the plan was to celebrate my birthday at Zouk/Attica/Zirca/Supperclub but at the end, we decided to go zouk. We went on 09.04.10 @11.55pm. Hisyam waited for me under my block. Cabbed to Khatib and meet the rest. On that day itself, I kept looking at my hp, Was expecting him to call or msg to bring me out. Makan at least? but I received from someone else instead.On that night itself approximately @ 12md, he called to wish me a happy birthday and he started to blabbering. I wanted to talk longer but I reminded myself to stop because I was afraid.So he didn't ask me how was my day or didn't ask me out on my birthday. I was hoping but I more or less want it to be surprise but nothing.So Zouk was pack with humans and fishes and zombies. We just dance on our own.I simply love the breeze okay! sudden blurness! ahaha!I didnt really fancy those songs that much. Went up and down. Phuture and zouk. Phuture was rnb. nice songs but i wished i was spending it with him.
HOME at last ard 0345 AM, Open the door and i saw dad and mom was lying on the floor ; electric was not working. shit right?? i wanted to pee, its a good thing my hp got light.Manage to take a nap for 15 mins and out again to work. shit. It was really a bummer cause I forget to bring my wallet and also ATM card. Good was I had coins with me. Tea and bun for breakfast. Tea and biscuit for lunch. Okay, Work was hell tiring and I wasn't surprise at all cause I know how my partner is like. &&& yeah, my stomach was growling and making noise.
I managed to sleep for 30mins and off to seletar dam. Me, my mom, cik mis and uncle. All the while, i was looking at the road.. hoping to see him. I cried silently. haiz. again the topic was about me and you. maybe i went too deep in the sea.
THIS IS HOW I CELEBRATED MY 20TH. <3
Friday, April 9, 2010
no plans for birthday
I am not expecting it.
I have been wondering how's my day gonna be like tomorrow.
I guess no one remember my birthday.
SAD SADDED SADDEN SADDENING
NURSHILAWATY ;
NUT
RAW
SHIT
TURN
YAWN
LAW
LAWN
LATIN
RUN
RAT
RAN
I have been wondering how's my day gonna be like tomorrow.
I guess no one remember my birthday.
SAD SADDED SADDEN SADDENING
NURSHILAWATY ;
NUT
RAW
SHIT
TURN
YAWN
LAW
LAWN
LATIN
RUN
RAT
RAN
youre one of a kind,boy.
few more hours for me to turn in to 20yrs old.
I wonder will he call me to ask me out.
fat hopes again.ahah
shall wonder all night long..
night people. i want to sleep.
i love you . kisses on your forehead.
oh well,i remember i always massage you whenever youre tired. scratch your back to make you sleep. hahaha. i love those nights. where you hug me tight.
now i shall just hug bolster and always wish thats you.
I wonder will he call me to ask me out.
fat hopes again.ahah
shall wonder all night long..
night people. i want to sleep.
i love you . kisses on your forehead.
oh well,i remember i always massage you whenever youre tired. scratch your back to make you sleep. hahaha. i love those nights. where you hug me tight.
now i shall just hug bolster and always wish thats you.
Thursday, April 8, 2010
endless love
he msged me. approximately at 12 md. to ask abt my audition. i was smiling actually.
i miss him.
everytime i want to msg him and ask him out, i will hesitate because i always got rejected.
and everytime we msg, we will have some misinterpretation.
i miss you yat. <3
i miss him.
everytime i want to msg him and ask him out, i will hesitate because i always got rejected.
and everytime we msg, we will have some misinterpretation.
i miss you yat. <3
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
No food means no love.
urgh.
I felt somehow today is a tiring day. but it helps me to forget everything.. At one point of time, whenever i need to do feeding, the thought of you came by. that is the hardest of all. Why do all the beautiful things come to my mind only now? looking at this couple,standing next to me reminded me of hugging you in the mrt. Aha. And out of sudden, my tears are already in verge on dropping. Shit. I hate this.
I miss my old self whom laugh non stop and act like a fool every time.
I was browsing my photo albums. I have hundreds pics of you and me. That keeps my heart beating non stop.But what upset me most is you said we had a boring relationship. why didn't you tell me? so i can improve. but after this had happened, theres nothing i can change.
i saw that doll is no longer on your keychains.everything i bought, is no longer by your side,its kept one side.
Leng is still in singapore surprisingly.
These few days I've been nausea and weak. Could be due to less intake nowadays. I can barely eat and sleep after all these rollercoaster rides going on.I need a break.
Pay day, quick come by as I want to go there by myself.And goodbye singapore.
I need to bang my head hard on the wall. I just want to know if it was wrong to love you.I've been sleeping for 2-3 hours only.I want to sleep all the way and live in dreamland.As for now, my feet is still swelling and I have no idea should I work of take mc, mc will bring bad reputation for me and I will not get any incentive. hehehe.I want to work work and work. Earn money for myself,save and go far away.Before that, I want to enroll at woodlands provided i have enough money.
shit, i typed so long and to know my internet dc.
I miss you is all i can say now.I don't want to end our friendship.Even though they said, don't even call this a friendship. I didn't say anything bad. I just said you left me by not giving the chance to look at you and hug you for the last time.That night, you left me hanging behind that enclosed door, tearing away. I was close of jumping down but my mom and grandmother came into the picture which stop me from doing that. The road was clear and there's no car at all.
I want no one to intrude with my feelings and life.I need a break before take amples of dosage. urghh.
These few days I've been nausea and weak. Could be due to less intake nowadays. I can barely eat and sleep after all these rollercoaster rides going on.I need a break.
Pay day, quick come by as I want to go there by myself.And goodbye singapore.
I need to bang my head hard on the wall. I just want to know if it was wrong to love you.I've been sleeping for 2-3 hours only.I want to sleep all the way and live in dreamland.As for now, my feet is still swelling and I have no idea should I work of take mc, mc will bring bad reputation for me and I will not get any incentive. hehehe.I want to work work and work. Earn money for myself,save and go far away.Before that, I want to enroll at woodlands provided i have enough money.
shit, i typed so long and to know my internet dc.
I miss you is all i can say now.I don't want to end our friendship.Even though they said, don't even call this a friendship. I didn't say anything bad. I just said you left me by not giving the chance to look at you and hug you for the last time.That night, you left me hanging behind that enclosed door, tearing away. I was close of jumping down but my mom and grandmother came into the picture which stop me from doing that. The road was clear and there's no car at all.
I want no one to intrude with my feelings and life.I need a break before take amples of dosage. urghh.
you dont seem to acknowledge me anymore
Its 2am in the morning.
i was thinking about my birthday. I was thinking of spending it alone at seletar dam with a small cake with me. just myself as I have no partner.
so saddening, I want to make others happy but I got it bad.Does overdose help?
i was thinking about my birthday. I was thinking of spending it alone at seletar dam with a small cake with me. just myself as I have no partner.
so saddening, I want to make others happy but I got it bad.Does overdose help?
Im thinking of you
Im thinking of you,in my sleepless solitude tonight
If it was wrong to love you then my heart just won't let me right cause I've drowned in you snd I won't pull through
Without you by my side..I'd give my all to have just one more night with you
I'd risk my life to feel your body next to mine
cause I can't go on living in the memory of our song
I'd give my all for your love tonight..baby can you feel me..Imagining I'm looking in your eyes..I can see you clearly..vividly emblazoned in my mind and yet you're so far like a distant star
I'm wishing on tonight.
If you were my own
To caress and hold
I would shower you with love
And drown within your soul
'Cause I live and breathe for you
And I really need you to know <3
I wonder and ponder too much about all those matters that are going on.
My life is like a rollercoaster with no brakes in between.Maybe I should blame myself because Ive been yearning to ride rollercoaster.. in order to settle this, I want to sit in between and hold both hands and let all out despite feeling fear and melancholy tears.I wish everything will come to an end on that day. I've made my mind to forgo my dream and wishful thinking.
They say, in order to live, we need to dream but whatever I dream of, makes my life and people around me suffer. I feel so vulnerable. Rejected and dejected.I went for long rides at night,I wander around the city in the middle of the night,alone. Yes alone. I can't sleep so I choose to go out and have some peaceful mind all by myself. good to have connections everywhere.But bills are killing me softly. You, my blog, have been a good companion. you are where I pour out my rants and such but shit happened and it destroyed part of my life.i am sorry because all this occured unintentionally, If I was a perfect person, I would stop all these from occurring and safe everyone from having problems.Living as a good person is the same as destroying ourselves. Being good is not enough?Bad mouth for being good and bad mouth from being bad. I would rather be as bad to balance those bad mouth.So as not to feel much pitiful and regret. but i chose to be a good person and help as much as i can. but my good intention is always seen as bad.Who is living in this world happily? please share with me, how?throughout my 20 yrs of age, i've been feeling down. When the happy time came, it didnt last. I should give up on myself.but i dont give up visiting you in my heart.thats your place and i havent met anyone yet to replace you, but i think none will replace even though you might see me with another guy after your marriage.<3
If it was wrong to love you then my heart just won't let me right cause I've drowned in you snd I won't pull through
Without you by my side..I'd give my all to have just one more night with you
I'd risk my life to feel your body next to mine
cause I can't go on living in the memory of our song
I'd give my all for your love tonight..baby can you feel me..Imagining I'm looking in your eyes..I can see you clearly..vividly emblazoned in my mind and yet you're so far like a distant star
I'm wishing on tonight.
If you were my own
To caress and hold
I would shower you with love
And drown within your soul
'Cause I live and breathe for you
And I really need you to know <3
I wonder and ponder too much about all those matters that are going on.
My life is like a rollercoaster with no brakes in between.Maybe I should blame myself because Ive been yearning to ride rollercoaster.. in order to settle this, I want to sit in between and hold both hands and let all out despite feeling fear and melancholy tears.I wish everything will come to an end on that day. I've made my mind to forgo my dream and wishful thinking.
They say, in order to live, we need to dream but whatever I dream of, makes my life and people around me suffer. I feel so vulnerable. Rejected and dejected.I went for long rides at night,I wander around the city in the middle of the night,alone. Yes alone. I can't sleep so I choose to go out and have some peaceful mind all by myself. good to have connections everywhere.But bills are killing me softly. You, my blog, have been a good companion. you are where I pour out my rants and such but shit happened and it destroyed part of my life.i am sorry because all this occured unintentionally, If I was a perfect person, I would stop all these from occurring and safe everyone from having problems.Living as a good person is the same as destroying ourselves. Being good is not enough?Bad mouth for being good and bad mouth from being bad. I would rather be as bad to balance those bad mouth.So as not to feel much pitiful and regret. but i chose to be a good person and help as much as i can. but my good intention is always seen as bad.Who is living in this world happily? please share with me, how?throughout my 20 yrs of age, i've been feeling down. When the happy time came, it didnt last. I should give up on myself.but i dont give up visiting you in my heart.thats your place and i havent met anyone yet to replace you, but i think none will replace even though you might see me with another guy after your marriage.<3
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
takes two to clap
Why do I even exist in this crucial world? Is it to hurt others aroound me or to help them with whatever matter? I felt my existance have brought a messy lifestyle , complicated and uneasy.Why do i even exist?Why?
An hour ago, someone tried to jump down from my house building.Attempt failed.I feel like doing the same but wish a success attempt.I want to lessen everyone's burden.
I am really sorry. I really appreciate all the small and big things you have done for me. frankly I have no intention to hurt you or otherwise.
An hour ago, someone tried to jump down from my house building.Attempt failed.I feel like doing the same but wish a success attempt.I want to lessen everyone's burden.
I am really sorry. I really appreciate all the small and big things you have done for me. frankly I have no intention to hurt you or otherwise.
Monday, April 5, 2010
you kill me with no love
At this point of time, i feel like jumping off from this building.Why is it hard to live happily without anyone trying to ruin the beauty of life.I don't want to hurt him and his family.I always want to help him but other people from outside has been putting poison about me.Why is it this way?I was shocked when i saw his message.I really have this blog on my own.No one knows.Why is there people who wants to break my relationship and friendship.What have i done or what are they jealous about me? Please, i want to live longer, give me this chance to live and have a happy time despite the break up which have destroyed my heart.I miss him and those moments i had with him.Why are you breaking it?I was just sharing how she feels because she was really upset and said she didn't like that lady.As much as we understand, close because she is helping him with work.As about you, you work with her everytime. okay. maybe the colour that you chose is always the brightest and nicest of all.Im the dullest and ugliest of all.You only need me when you need to darken the shade. but i know you longer, shouldnt i be the one whom you will look fow when you are dealing with problems and such. your reasons are rationale, mine too.but whatever it is, how you guys gonna look at me now,im okay because i leave you to judge.
i think i have shrunk. i think i have lost my pride.In fact, i have lost everything.
As much as i want you very much. i miss your touch and how you bully me. i cant have you anymore.everytime i saw a couple, i cried and walked as fast as possible.i dont want to be noticed for crying.when we are single, we tend to see happy couple.
i want to have someone to look after me. show me love.
i feel so disappointed with my life now. never get better.
at times i feel like killing myself. and bid goodbye to everyone.
another 6 days, i gonna turn 20. i want to celebrate with you, thats only a wish that no longer can be fulfilled.
i long for your "baby.."kisses.."\
baby, i want you back.
i love you still, khayrul.
but she asked me to take u as a hi bye friend.
i think i have shrunk. i think i have lost my pride.In fact, i have lost everything.
As much as i want you very much. i miss your touch and how you bully me. i cant have you anymore.everytime i saw a couple, i cried and walked as fast as possible.i dont want to be noticed for crying.when we are single, we tend to see happy couple.
i want to have someone to look after me. show me love.
i feel so disappointed with my life now. never get better.
at times i feel like killing myself. and bid goodbye to everyone.
another 6 days, i gonna turn 20. i want to celebrate with you, thats only a wish that no longer can be fulfilled.
i long for your "baby.."kisses.."\
baby, i want you back.
i love you still, khayrul.
but she asked me to take u as a hi bye friend.
Menjauhi diri
Everyone says, he doesn't deserve a girl like me and she said he don't respect me as a girl.
Why do i deserve this after all the things i have done? I've gone through alot. I sacrificed my time for you and family to only know i am nothing to you. I am more willing to help you by knowing you as a stranger. Because knowing you as my past or maybe a friend which i don't think it exist in my world, it's just going to hurt me deeper. But knowing you once and twice was great and really help much to me because you open up my eyes and see your true colours instead.You are my past. I've always hoped for you to be my present but looking at my future and you behaviour, you going to repeat this and I am going to go through the same old shit. You shitted on me and you played with my feelings. I have never thought you are this bad and you just dump your friend aside after having a new friend or partner. A big applause to you. I am no one thus the avoidance and ignorance I get. But my kindness will always be there for you. I will help you if you ever needed me regardless of those harsh words and such.
Happy for you khayrulhayat.
As for cik Aida, she must have gone through alot too. Eversince cik nory is close with his mom, she is being left out and not noticed on that day.
Same boat. he is treating me this way.
still i love you. you were there by me at all times.
Why do i deserve this after all the things i have done? I've gone through alot. I sacrificed my time for you and family to only know i am nothing to you. I am more willing to help you by knowing you as a stranger. Because knowing you as my past or maybe a friend which i don't think it exist in my world, it's just going to hurt me deeper. But knowing you once and twice was great and really help much to me because you open up my eyes and see your true colours instead.You are my past. I've always hoped for you to be my present but looking at my future and you behaviour, you going to repeat this and I am going to go through the same old shit. You shitted on me and you played with my feelings. I have never thought you are this bad and you just dump your friend aside after having a new friend or partner. A big applause to you. I am no one thus the avoidance and ignorance I get. But my kindness will always be there for you. I will help you if you ever needed me regardless of those harsh words and such.
Happy for you khayrulhayat.
As for cik Aida, she must have gone through alot too. Eversince cik nory is close with his mom, she is being left out and not noticed on that day.
Same boat. he is treating me this way.
still i love you. you were there by me at all times.
Sunday, April 4, 2010
a broken glass
I can't fix back a broken heart.
I feel so much envy whenever i saw couples having fun and loving each other.
Why can't i own the same.
I hate to cry and cause myself to be hurt.. but thinking of you, makes me cry harder. i always wanted you to be by me. understand my situation. when are you going to open up your heart for me.. chances is all i need to proof you.
im sick of getting sick.
i had a quick talk with caroline, she said, what is meant for you, will always be yours. don't chase after him, he will come. don't ignore nor don't msg. -haiz,you its hard. the more you want it, the more you wont get it.
Ku ingin bersama mu, kau berjanji menjaga hati ini.
you said even though you have a gf, you will still bring me out. but you seems to forget abt me already. you neglected me.you have become very bold.
you have karen to fill up your heart,now..
you just pushed me far away and now i feel im useless and should go far away from you.
they were mad cause i went to his house to help his mom to look after the house, give the cats food..then i help to fold clothes and water the plants. they said they are nothing to me, who else will do if im not ard..
i said i do it sincerely. io have nothing against them.
fad, what is wrong with you? why did you suddenly ask me to forget about yat.???! add on to my anger.why did you asked if im stil sleeping over..???
i know it, i know when to forget him.. just that the past is still clinging on to my mind
I feel so much envy whenever i saw couples having fun and loving each other.
Why can't i own the same.
I hate to cry and cause myself to be hurt.. but thinking of you, makes me cry harder. i always wanted you to be by me. understand my situation. when are you going to open up your heart for me.. chances is all i need to proof you.
im sick of getting sick.
i had a quick talk with caroline, she said, what is meant for you, will always be yours. don't chase after him, he will come. don't ignore nor don't msg. -haiz,you its hard. the more you want it, the more you wont get it.
Ku ingin bersama mu, kau berjanji menjaga hati ini.
you said even though you have a gf, you will still bring me out. but you seems to forget abt me already. you neglected me.you have become very bold.
you have karen to fill up your heart,now..
you just pushed me far away and now i feel im useless and should go far away from you.
they were mad cause i went to his house to help his mom to look after the house, give the cats food..then i help to fold clothes and water the plants. they said they are nothing to me, who else will do if im not ard..
i said i do it sincerely. io have nothing against them.
fad, what is wrong with you? why did you suddenly ask me to forget about yat.???! add on to my anger.why did you asked if im stil sleeping over..???
i know it, i know when to forget him.. just that the past is still clinging on to my mind
Thursday, April 1, 2010
a friend will always be there to share expriences and be a listening ear
29th march 2010,
Was at home since I changed shift to morning. Went to join mummy and cik noriyah along with husband and khay to jb. before that all of us were at sembawang checking cj house. Nice, i wish i could rent for myself.Jb there just to have dinner.hahahaahah!
Home.
finally, i gave him that precious pen from agnes b. Hope he likes it.
30th march 2010.
JURONG BIRD PARK with Siti , Kak ladygaga and Kak Shims. A bit of wasted cause they didnt try to walk in to those enclosed sections.apart from that, it was quite an enjoyable day. I didnt know mummy actually wanna go jb on that day.kinda missed it but still she picked me up at woodlands.had rojak somewhere her house. saw him. no, not a word of hi.how are you and where are u from. Hey, im plain stupid i guess, as said by her.stupid for i cant see that he is really over me.
31st march 2010.
Back to square one again. Me hisyam ,sharifah and amali. PULAU UBIN. I really feel the pinch upon hearing what hisyam have shared.
Was at home since I changed shift to morning. Went to join mummy and cik noriyah along with husband and khay to jb. before that all of us were at sembawang checking cj house. Nice, i wish i could rent for myself.Jb there just to have dinner.hahahaahah!
Home.
finally, i gave him that precious pen from agnes b. Hope he likes it.
30th march 2010.
JURONG BIRD PARK with Siti , Kak ladygaga and Kak Shims. A bit of wasted cause they didnt try to walk in to those enclosed sections.apart from that, it was quite an enjoyable day. I didnt know mummy actually wanna go jb on that day.kinda missed it but still she picked me up at woodlands.had rojak somewhere her house. saw him. no, not a word of hi.how are you and where are u from. Hey, im plain stupid i guess, as said by her.stupid for i cant see that he is really over me.
31st march 2010.
Back to square one again. Me hisyam ,sharifah and amali. PULAU UBIN. I really feel the pinch upon hearing what hisyam have shared.
Sunday, March 28, 2010
you strengthen my heart when its weak.
I was contented for sometime.
I wished it was you who I need to sit next with.
They were so lovely that i felt like crying because i cant have it the same. both were white and black.
resembles our life, past and present.
if the past would make me happy i would live for the past and die for the present.
As i was riding the sky ride, i wish it was you who spent that day with me for it was our anniversary. i know you dont remember all this but i do. all the small things we did, been haunting and clinging onto my mind. maybe you forget but i dont.They were too sweet that i wish i could do the same to you but better. i want to be the one who feeds you when youre sick, massage you when youre tired and aching,listen to your rants when youre angry and happy, talk to you when youre bored. but sad to know all this while i was just a boring gf.
i wish to have you again.
few more hours, i gonna face the judges. i want your words of motivation to strengthen me.
I wished it was you who I need to sit next with.
They were so lovely that i felt like crying because i cant have it the same. both were white and black.
resembles our life, past and present.
if the past would make me happy i would live for the past and die for the present.
As i was riding the sky ride, i wish it was you who spent that day with me for it was our anniversary. i know you dont remember all this but i do. all the small things we did, been haunting and clinging onto my mind. maybe you forget but i dont.They were too sweet that i wish i could do the same to you but better. i want to be the one who feeds you when youre sick, massage you when youre tired and aching,listen to your rants when youre angry and happy, talk to you when youre bored. but sad to know all this while i was just a boring gf.
i wish to have you again.
few more hours, i gonna face the judges. i want your words of motivation to strengthen me.
Saturday, March 27, 2010
so yesterday songs shall keep playing in my heart.
I sang that song whole heartedly but he wasnt there. it was only the dj and me. Setia kukorbankan by fauziah latif.
I wanted to sing a duet with him but i just had to hold back my words and movements because i dont want to be rejected. i just chose a song andang cinta ku menyala w/o partner.. i decided not to sing when then it was my turn reason was i had no partner but he came to say he will sing with me. okay,but my heart sank and i couldnt sing.
it hurts me to see him there but i cant have him.
i guess he has found a new love.
i just want to step back and remain like this forever.
knowing he can't be there. i want no other man although they keep pm-ing me here and ther. they just cant be like you.
I wanted to sing a duet with him but i just had to hold back my words and movements because i dont want to be rejected. i just chose a song andang cinta ku menyala w/o partner.. i decided not to sing when then it was my turn reason was i had no partner but he came to say he will sing with me. okay,but my heart sank and i couldnt sing.
it hurts me to see him there but i cant have him.
i guess he has found a new love.
i just want to step back and remain like this forever.
knowing he can't be there. i want no other man although they keep pm-ing me here and ther. they just cant be like you.
Thursday, March 25, 2010
True love doesn't mean you need to have the person by you.
True love is when you have to watch a friend leave,
with the knowledge that you might never see him again.
But you know he'll be in your mind and heart forever.
Meeting you was fate,
becoming your friend was a choice,
falling in love with you
was beyond my control.
The way to know true and selfless love
is rather than trying to change the one you love to fit your way,
change instead your way to fit the one you love.
Yesterday was dad's birthday. Im not cruel to not even wish him. I did and he replied "k,thanks".
So you looked for me to join you for supper,for real?
I thought you always have someone to accompany you and you no longer find me.
But yat, I will always be there when you need help.
I guess he has found a gf. Look at his post. :)
it doesnt matter where he is, i can always find him in my heart. <3
with the knowledge that you might never see him again.
But you know he'll be in your mind and heart forever.
Meeting you was fate,
becoming your friend was a choice,
falling in love with you
was beyond my control.
The way to know true and selfless love
is rather than trying to change the one you love to fit your way,
change instead your way to fit the one you love.
Yesterday was dad's birthday. Im not cruel to not even wish him. I did and he replied "k,thanks".
So you looked for me to join you for supper,for real?
I thought you always have someone to accompany you and you no longer find me.
But yat, I will always be there when you need help.
I guess he has found a gf. Look at his post. :)
it doesnt matter where he is, i can always find him in my heart. <3
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
take away love and our earth is a tomb
Nothing hurts more than realizing he meant everything to you, but you meant nothing to him.
he dont show me that he is concern abt me cause shes there by him.
No matter who broke your heart, or how long it takes to heal, you’ll never get through it without your friend.
he has, i dont.
he dont show me that he is concern abt me cause shes there by him.
No matter who broke your heart, or how long it takes to heal, you’ll never get through it without your friend.
he has, i dont.
Had a talk last night. Same thing, move on. Yes, I definitely know I have to move on but its going to take a longer time. It is tough because we were close, we were like family, we gone through many things, those time we built and spent. Just the memories that is haunting me. My heart cries everytime I think of him. Are we really not meant for each other? Why can't i live with the person I love so much.
Monday, March 22, 2010
you are just you
Did i say i dreamt of him.
I just remember slight of it. It was as though we just met and he asked me out,of course i agreed but i had no money with me so i asked my mom for money.haha then i forget what happened. i cant believe i dreamt of him.
he never msg me still.. i miss having him around me.
Leaving him far away from my sight is hurtful.
I can't open my heart for anyone yet, i guess it will never.
I still couldn't believe that 7 years could be this fast,How you look at me, how you laugh at me, how you smile at me, how you talk to me, how you kiss me, how you cuddle me and how you take care of me. You may bade goodbye to me.I am sure you are going to be a happier person. you have always wished for this to happen.Maybe, we started to early to view the differences and decide.
Saying goodbye is always easy, its the moments we have been through thats tough to forget. There are at times which you wish you could amend it straight and make things alright. I blame myself for hurting my heart.why did i leave the broken glass scattered all over.why do we live this way.
you seems to be fine. very fine. i know. because ure never committed when u were with me. i was a fool. i gave in everything to him. he forgets everything. he just think of whats next and doesnt want to live with me after what happened.
you will never know if the person youy have chosen would be someone you regret living with.
Sometimes, the hardest things to say are the things that matters
I just remember slight of it. It was as though we just met and he asked me out,of course i agreed but i had no money with me so i asked my mom for money.haha then i forget what happened. i cant believe i dreamt of him.
he never msg me still.. i miss having him around me.
Leaving him far away from my sight is hurtful.
I can't open my heart for anyone yet, i guess it will never.
I still couldn't believe that 7 years could be this fast,How you look at me, how you laugh at me, how you smile at me, how you talk to me, how you kiss me, how you cuddle me and how you take care of me. You may bade goodbye to me.I am sure you are going to be a happier person. you have always wished for this to happen.Maybe, we started to early to view the differences and decide.
Saying goodbye is always easy, its the moments we have been through thats tough to forget. There are at times which you wish you could amend it straight and make things alright. I blame myself for hurting my heart.why did i leave the broken glass scattered all over.why do we live this way.
you seems to be fine. very fine. i know. because ure never committed when u were with me. i was a fool. i gave in everything to him. he forgets everything. he just think of whats next and doesnt want to live with me after what happened.
you will never know if the person youy have chosen would be someone you regret living with.
Sometimes, the hardest things to say are the things that matters
replacement
i know you will never visit me here. we live so close yet we are far away.
since you have her in your life all your time, you pushed my away without any concern.
you have to hurt me this way.
you no longer need someone like me.
you will only realise once you lose it, the moment you amended and want it back, youre just a step late.
shila, bear in mind. he will never ask you or find you again.
disappear from his life. he is moving on fast.
since you have her in your life all your time, you pushed my away without any concern.
you have to hurt me this way.
you no longer need someone like me.
you will only realise once you lose it, the moment you amended and want it back, youre just a step late.
shila, bear in mind. he will never ask you or find you again.
disappear from his life. he is moving on fast.
angsty
I just reached home last night before 10pm.
We ended our holidays by going for wedding. I should have followed what he said. To go home with them because i had a tiff with my closest aunt the day after. day before, i was fucked up because i lost my hp. i was seacrhing up and down for it and the next thing i know is, its in her bag and didnt even know it. who else can it be?? make me worry for nothing. I was thinking how to pay bills and such.. and how am i gonna find that money to buy a phone. bonus is still far away; july. I think i gonna hold Singtel bill first and pay my debt for courts and termination line for m1. stupid M1. stated negative but ended up terminating when its supposed to be september. idiot.
I was very upset with my family because they never think of how my grandmother is supposed to go home when theres no one left at that place. another idiot. the distance is not even 1 or 2 km. i hold on to my tears. they only think of going back because it is very hot and journey. fucking shit. regret for not saving money and take license for good.
We ended our holidays by going for wedding. I should have followed what he said. To go home with them because i had a tiff with my closest aunt the day after. day before, i was fucked up because i lost my hp. i was seacrhing up and down for it and the next thing i know is, its in her bag and didnt even know it. who else can it be?? make me worry for nothing. I was thinking how to pay bills and such.. and how am i gonna find that money to buy a phone. bonus is still far away; july. I think i gonna hold Singtel bill first and pay my debt for courts and termination line for m1. stupid M1. stated negative but ended up terminating when its supposed to be september. idiot.
I was very upset with my family because they never think of how my grandmother is supposed to go home when theres no one left at that place. another idiot. the distance is not even 1 or 2 km. i hold on to my tears. they only think of going back because it is very hot and journey. fucking shit. regret for not saving money and take license for good.
Thursday, March 18, 2010
bad apple
Both me & zahra went to visit linda as she has given birth to another baby boy. I wonder when will i have and get the same feeling like hers.She has grown bigger compare to back then when she was in secondary school.. What makes a mother to grow that big? Happiness? hee.. Linda, we will alwasy pray and be there for you when you need help okay.Dont be to stressed up with your sons.
Went to somerset to get our accessories. Separated with her cause her bf got night out. i understand how amin feels, let him feel your love my dear. anyway, khayrul want to send me jb? how shocking is that?
i really appreciate your help khayrul but you know i dont want others to talk again about how unappreciative i am because i don't know how to repay your kindness towards my family. Ive given your family much disgrace.
If they know this, im sure they gonna be mad at me because im not being strong. Im sorry but i love him and his family even though he look down on me, and such.Im still appreciating his mom's love. i wished i could hug her and weep my tears but again, they were there..
khay said he wanted to confess something.. i wonder what and to who. i shall not ask to be a fool. I saw his pictures.
Really, everytime when we were together, he will be busy with schools, assignments and soccer..less outing with me.. Now that he no longer with me, he no longer schooling.. but working.. he still got time, i think almost of his time is spent with karen and his gfs. watching movie and bring such places whilst when i was with him, i always have to decide. Shes aint boring cause she's beautiful and shes just a friend so theres no engulf..mine is different. u always find me as a bad apple.
Went to somerset to get our accessories. Separated with her cause her bf got night out. i understand how amin feels, let him feel your love my dear. anyway, khayrul want to send me jb? how shocking is that?
i really appreciate your help khayrul but you know i dont want others to talk again about how unappreciative i am because i don't know how to repay your kindness towards my family. Ive given your family much disgrace.
If they know this, im sure they gonna be mad at me because im not being strong. Im sorry but i love him and his family even though he look down on me, and such.Im still appreciating his mom's love. i wished i could hug her and weep my tears but again, they were there..
khay said he wanted to confess something.. i wonder what and to who. i shall not ask to be a fool. I saw his pictures.
Really, everytime when we were together, he will be busy with schools, assignments and soccer..less outing with me.. Now that he no longer with me, he no longer schooling.. but working.. he still got time, i think almost of his time is spent with karen and his gfs. watching movie and bring such places whilst when i was with him, i always have to decide. Shes aint boring cause she's beautiful and shes just a friend so theres no engulf..mine is different. u always find me as a bad apple.
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
how are you
I always wonder what are you doing now? Have you eaten? What have you been up to? How is your work going? Who are you dating with now? But to know all this by myself, is really hurting myself. They asked me to stop everything that has got to do with you.I simply can't.You know, we have been through alot together. You left a bigger impact in my life.. this is the biggest.I wasn't this hurt when you left me last year. I have to disappear myself. I don't want to do this. Neither do i want to hurt myself. But you always want the best and chose this way.. You left me hurt by myself,alone..had no one to turn too.. Everytime i find you to help me but this time round, i am with myself. I feel so stupid and dump like you said i am..to actually msg you and got the cheeks to ask you out. To the stupidest ive been is, you chose to reject me and go on with the other party.. if you love me, or still want me back.. you would have chosen me. Ive seen alot of this so i assume, you no longer and will never love me.. You believe this way,don't you..
Ya ALLAH, Sebesar besar kesilapan aku sebagai manusia,besarkan lagi lah kebahagian seseorang insan yang aku sayangi dan lindunginya dengan segala rintangan yang akan melanda dirinya.Walaupun aku dicacinya dan dibencinya, merekalah yang pernah melihat kehidupan aku dengan menjaga aku sehingga aku sempurna. Dengan engkau aku bertaktah, dengan engkau aku mengadu.. dengarla rayuanku untuk menjaga kami, dengan keluarganya..Sesungguhnya akulah yang bersalah, tunjukkanlah perjalanan yang betul. Jika aku yang berdosa, ampunkan la aku dan maafkan la aku.AMIN.
Ya ALLAH, Sebesar besar kesilapan aku sebagai manusia,besarkan lagi lah kebahagian seseorang insan yang aku sayangi dan lindunginya dengan segala rintangan yang akan melanda dirinya.Walaupun aku dicacinya dan dibencinya, merekalah yang pernah melihat kehidupan aku dengan menjaga aku sehingga aku sempurna. Dengan engkau aku bertaktah, dengan engkau aku mengadu.. dengarla rayuanku untuk menjaga kami, dengan keluarganya..Sesungguhnya akulah yang bersalah, tunjukkanlah perjalanan yang betul. Jika aku yang berdosa, ampunkan la aku dan maafkan la aku.AMIN.
khay,i hope u wil come and visit me here. I really rec it later ..i rec mami msg only.. I got to know u went out with karen to watch movie ytd,they saw u. Thus saying u didnt do this to me this often..now u alway want to watch movie.. Why??u nvr ask me anymore..how hurtful.. i just felt like posting it but i forget u will feel the pinch.. So i just say to my friend..he kept msging me..he was saying he dreamt i was a ghost,i was sleeping with him and such.. I dont make story..then i saw ur msg.. I know how u feel.. Sorry if u feel the pinch..it was nvr meant to u.. I am sad to leave u and nvr msg u but u are being cold to me so i tell myself u dont love me anymore..not
Sunday, March 14, 2010
Im living alone?
Went to DXO last night to loosen myself.
You just don't want to be with me alone. I asked you out twice but got rejected. Many at times. You reason is im always a step late. Decision is on your hand whom you want to go out with. First i ask, you said youre lying, very tired, next thing is you already going out. great lie. very much spontaneous.So you chose her before me. Im alright just slightly dejected for what you've done. What's next?
Not a slightest appreciation.
I don't want money.
You just don't want to be with me alone. I asked you out twice but got rejected. Many at times. You reason is im always a step late. Decision is on your hand whom you want to go out with. First i ask, you said youre lying, very tired, next thing is you already going out. great lie. very much spontaneous.So you chose her before me. Im alright just slightly dejected for what you've done. What's next?
Not a slightest appreciation.
I don't want money.
Friday, March 12, 2010
myself
yesterday,i didnt manage to update.
Yesterday plan was to meet up with his mom b'cause i thought i wanted to apologise directly & visually. End up there were all of us, Cik Noriah, Mami, Kak yana and surprisingly, khay was around. I always thought he would avoid from me for a very long time. skip this.
We went to Jb to pay his house bills then had our early dinner at El migos. Was fascinated with the concept. Engross to take pictures. Ate until we are full. HAHA! then head back home as khay has something on. I felt a tad awkward so i called up my mom to ask where she was, she was at causeway point,so met her and the other two sis of mine at cwp. Had our early supper at siam kitchen. I felt better,slightly..though there is still scar in my heart.My family made me laugh. I didnt realised i ordered alot of ice cream and couldnt finish all.. they said whoever cant finish have to pay the bill.Hahahahahahaha!
at night, i fell asleep with my laptop on my stomach,panas pe?..ahah. 0030hr i received msg from someone asking whether i can be friends with him. Not my type.
So today i went out with ika, she knew abt it. expected. Bought her,mami and cik aida some blouse.but i told ika to say its from her. @ 11 had our supper at mcd with kak yana cas and khay. afterwhich watch 2 movies at his place, like usual, he wont watch.if his friends ask,he would. i know him that well. Home at 4.30 am!
Yesterday plan was to meet up with his mom b'cause i thought i wanted to apologise directly & visually. End up there were all of us, Cik Noriah, Mami, Kak yana and surprisingly, khay was around. I always thought he would avoid from me for a very long time. skip this.
We went to Jb to pay his house bills then had our early dinner at El migos. Was fascinated with the concept. Engross to take pictures. Ate until we are full. HAHA! then head back home as khay has something on. I felt a tad awkward so i called up my mom to ask where she was, she was at causeway point,so met her and the other two sis of mine at cwp. Had our early supper at siam kitchen. I felt better,slightly..though there is still scar in my heart.My family made me laugh. I didnt realised i ordered alot of ice cream and couldnt finish all.. they said whoever cant finish have to pay the bill.Hahahahahahaha!
at night, i fell asleep with my laptop on my stomach,panas pe?..ahah. 0030hr i received msg from someone asking whether i can be friends with him. Not my type.
So today i went out with ika, she knew abt it. expected. Bought her,mami and cik aida some blouse.but i told ika to say its from her. @ 11 had our supper at mcd with kak yana cas and khay. afterwhich watch 2 movies at his place, like usual, he wont watch.if his friends ask,he would. i know him that well. Home at 4.30 am!
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
someone
i have come to think that i cant have my own happiness. khayrul needs his own happiness and that is not with me. I have seen him going through hard times, happy times.I can be very upset now but time will heal as we go along and i will keep trying to a stronger person.
I dont know if i will meet someone who is just like him, again. I hope there is.I dont even know if i gonna fall in love again.This could be how he felt last time. I knew this would come by cause i didnt have a good start the first day of the year. I hope to be your sister still.Now i have no one to confide to, i will get myself a bear on my birthday. I have no one to celebrate my birthday with but im okay. as long as i get to celebrate yours and see you happy getting a surprise boot and psp from me.
Khayrul, as much and long i type this. i hope you will get yourself a life long partner. Who will make you happy, who will be there when you in need them, who will go through challenges with you. i will just be your shadow, watch you from afar. I want to be there on your biggest day.Dont forget me.
i will send an angel to watch you sleep, drink and eat. i want my angel to protect you from any harm of sadness. :)
I dont know if i will meet someone who is just like him, again. I hope there is.I dont even know if i gonna fall in love again.This could be how he felt last time. I knew this would come by cause i didnt have a good start the first day of the year. I hope to be your sister still.Now i have no one to confide to, i will get myself a bear on my birthday. I have no one to celebrate my birthday with but im okay. as long as i get to celebrate yours and see you happy getting a surprise boot and psp from me.
Khayrul, as much and long i type this. i hope you will get yourself a life long partner. Who will make you happy, who will be there when you in need them, who will go through challenges with you. i will just be your shadow, watch you from afar. I want to be there on your biggest day.Dont forget me.
i will send an angel to watch you sleep, drink and eat. i want my angel to protect you from any harm of sadness. :)
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
Rain.
yesterday when i cried, the rain showed up. today i cried, the raine showed up again.
does ALLAH hear me crying in pain.? then why let me suffer this way.
does ALLAH hear me crying in pain.? then why let me suffer this way.
sickness
I shiver as i'm typing. never been this hot.38.6 deg. why do i have fever for nothing. i feel so weak. i just have to lie on bed. im hungry but i have been on less appetite for the past few days. good ways of losing weight though. i feel weak when you are not around. havent i told you this, youre my strength. just you. only you can cure me. everything about me hurt because of this.eye, head, heart and body. I want you to be next to me now and watch me lie...looking pale..
Separation
At this hour, i found myself crying. I miss him so much and he doesn't seem to know it. Why he doesn't seem to care. I feel very ashamed because he doesn't want me back. but what else can i do, he hates me. why this separation occur.why do you have to leave at this point of time. if we are really not meant for each other, i wouldn't boast around.
baby by me
baby, where are you now when i need you the most..why dont you take my hand.. i wanna be close to you. take my hand and walk with me.. baby where are you now when nothing is going right.. i cant see the light.i need you to set me free. why do we fall apart, i feel all alone..lonely lonely..
Every time we see a blocked path, don't get upset. It could just be God's great guidance
Every time we see a blocked path, don't get upset. It could just be God's great guidance
forgotten
dear,
you must have forgotten about me. you know i can't go to sleep without knowing where you are now. How you feel. Is it getting better?. I can't keep my eyes away from my laptop. i can't stop myself from visiting your website to know anything new about you.Waiting for your messages.i feel dump.I'm stupid to do this way.But i can't forget you yet, never.
Monday, March 8, 2010
Reminiscing
today i posted alot cause i have nothing better to do. i cant talk to myself so i talk to blogger.. since no one is reading it too.
today my mom ask what i want for my birthday.on my mind there's only him. i replied engage on my birthday. then she asked next month? then she said the guy family havent ask.. i smiled and walk away. smiled cause i dont want to show.
in the taxi, i came to remember all those beautiful & wonderful times together. i miss everything. I miss how they laugh at my stupidity and clumsyness. i miss the way he teases me. i miss the way he laugh at me. i miss kissing his forehead when he asleep. i miss pinching him. i miss karaoke-ing with him. i remember i tried to make him laugh by acting stupid dancing with broom and he singing with shades and holding on to cup of glass. i miss every ways. why do i have to cry in the night.
are we really not meant for each other? then why does HE let us meet at first. why.
bila kusedari diri disayangi, langkah kaki ini makin berani. bila terkeliru ku ucapkan namamu.
have i said this, you are the light when the darkness fall. you showed me path so i wont get lost.
today, i chatted with his mom.
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sue_1605@yahoo.com said:
kak...
syella said:
yes
ika
i waited for u dari 2pm..
hahah
sue_1605@yahoo.com says:
shila!!!!!!!!!!!!
syella says:
weewiit.. jap, ni sape? ika?
sue_1605@yahoo.com says:
emmmmmmmmmmmmm
lupa ke
syella says:
ah . mami ke?
sue_1605@yahoo.com says:
rasan
syella says:
a hha.. memang la mami kan..
a
sue_1605@yahoo.com says:
sape lagi
ika da alik
syella says:
a h.okay2. tadi die anta msg, skrg baru perasan
sue_1605@yahoo.com says:
tk keje/
ka
syella says:
niari off day pasal besok keje malam..ahhaah
sue_1605@yahoo.com says:
oic
syella says:
best kan..tapi skrg i kat np
sue_1605@yahoo.com says:
tahu tadi ikut
syella says:
ikot?
gi mane?
sue_1605@yahoo.com says:
ha tk tahu ja
syella says:
jb la ni kan??
sue_1605@yahoo.com says:
bukannnnnnnnn
syella says:
merayap? or rumah customer?
sue_1605@yahoo.com says:
customer apa lagi
syella says:
i punye cartoon ketawe,lagi cute..
mami da start maid agency eh?
sue_1605@yahoo.com says:
blmmmmmmmmmmmm
lagi sbk ada confinement
alik da mlm sian
syella says:
kesian nye.. relax..
tgh buat pe seh?
boring seh...
sue_1605@yahoo.com says:
apasal
ops mami lagi bual wit baba
dia dtng sini lagi talk 2
syella says:
.ok2
go talk.
i nak tanye pasal i nak amek course..nanti i forward kat u.
sue_1605@yahoo.com says:
ok course
explore is for ur own gd
keep it up
syella says:
BASIC DEPORTMENT & GROOMING COURSE - $450.00
Deportment (includes body language)
Personal hygiene
Figure control
Make-up for day and evening
Skincare
Manicure
Social etiquette
Fashion sense
sue_1605@yahoo.com says:
so u can b better person
mami pray for u
kata anak mak
e he
manicure ok but aft dah bgus jng buat jadi boss
syella says:
ahaa h
sue_1605@yahoo.com says:
cos mani n patdi u alway buat nanti ur hand prb
syella says:
ade make up class jugak
a
sue_1605@yahoo.com says:
coz byk my cstmer run all dat
come back to me kesian mami tengok
syella says:
tangan semua lembek2 kan
heee
sue_1605@yahoo.com says:
num
syella says:
PROFESSIONAL MODELLING COURSE - $650.00
Only graduates from the Basic Deportment and Grooming Course will be accepted
into the Professional Modelling Course. This advance course is structured to prepare
a student for an illustrious career as a fashion and/or photographic model.
8 classes of 2 hours each are held weekly, covering:
Catwalk technique
Photographic make-up
Photographic posing
Modelling
sue_1605@yahoo.com says:
skill no 1 can take
syella says:
yes.since banyak free time
sue_1605@yahoo.com says:
kan mami da bilang dulu make up artist is e best
can make it
byk org kawin guna kan
n if ada duit can run studio
syella says:
yes!
tulah.. ni die ade ajar everything
sue_1605@yahoo.com says:
ok if u rasa u can comit all tis ada safe jugak
all depent how u wanna run
e course pon tk m l okla
syella says:
duit nak run studio, i takde la.. kalau org stakat suro make2 up for wedding ke photoshooting boleh la share2 kan..
sue_1605@yahoo.com says:
boleh for first move
b urself
so frm der u learn
n b murtured
pape can talk to me feel free
no prb
syella says:
ada bim
sue_1605@yahoo.com says:
asalkan jln yng betul
bgusn
if u rasa i like ur mum
mane 2 im ok
syella says:
apa ini macam?
sue_1605@yahoo.com says:
apa ini macam
pe sey
syella says:
ahah. kalau tak, takkan la i tanye ur opinion..
i tanye my mom, die ckp topic lain
sue_1605@yahoo.com says: mayb dia tk phm
dia kan tahu nak masak2
syella says: pada die,duit tu save je..tulah.die tgh plan nak bukak kedai..tgh cari tempat.
baba kat sane? tgh buat pe?
baring?
sue_1605@yahoo.com says:
dia lagi bual luarkan perasaan sian
ok
bgus jugak
syella says:
alah kesiannye.. okayla. kirim salam kat baba. bilang baba tak perlu risau2 ke pening2. hidup jalan terus.. h
takya stop2.
sue_1605@yahoo.com says:
stop nafas tkda hee
syella says:
ha. jangan.
sue_1605@yahoo.com says:
beh nk camne
syella says:
i mean jgn stop2 to think fikir2..
a h
i ada gamba baru<
sue_1605@yahoo.com says:
u pray kan mami jugak
if wat ever mami run business
maju is gd
i wanna plan lain so u learn take it
syella says:
no worries. mami kan bagus in running business. semua org will pray for you so that everything will go smoothly
sue_1605@yahoo.com says:
so i nk u run yng mana stble for u 2
mami naikkan my to children so u pon my
mine
hope for e best k
tk mau blurrrrrrrrrrrrr
syella says:
jgn la ckp macam gini. mcm sedih je. jangan risau2. things will go smoothly ..
slowly.
sue_1605@yahoo.com says:
blur rabon tkpe jng lain
syella says:
a ha
naughty eh
sue_1605@yahoo.com says:
gd kan
people change one day
god bless
syella says:
hope for the best je. bismillah
sue_1605@yahoo.com says:
amin
da go sheep
syella says:
i nak cabut uban my mom.
u take care
sue_1605@yahoo.com says:
bsk mami ada custemer
syella says:
banyak
?
sue_1605@yahoo.com says:
u to kirim
smlm mami turun uma cik biba ur mum da alik
mami dtng lambat cos uma org dtng
syella says:
ouh.. i baru tau. i baru tanye my mom. my mom tanye u tak pergi ke..i cakap u pergi lambat.
eheh
okayla. mami talk to baba. kesian baba.. tgh sedih..heh. anything can msg
sue_1605@yahoo.com says:
dia da sheep pon mami pon b gd nite sweet dream
syella says:
hah. goodnight! yes sweetdreams. nanti i jumpe u dalam mimpi. tata
sue_1605@yahoo.com says:
muazk
syella winks:
Play "Kiss"
today my mom ask what i want for my birthday.on my mind there's only him. i replied engage on my birthday. then she asked next month? then she said the guy family havent ask.. i smiled and walk away. smiled cause i dont want to show.
in the taxi, i came to remember all those beautiful & wonderful times together. i miss everything. I miss how they laugh at my stupidity and clumsyness. i miss the way he teases me. i miss the way he laugh at me. i miss kissing his forehead when he asleep. i miss pinching him. i miss karaoke-ing with him. i remember i tried to make him laugh by acting stupid dancing with broom and he singing with shades and holding on to cup of glass. i miss every ways. why do i have to cry in the night.
are we really not meant for each other? then why does HE let us meet at first. why.
bila kusedari diri disayangi, langkah kaki ini makin berani. bila terkeliru ku ucapkan namamu.
have i said this, you are the light when the darkness fall. you showed me path so i wont get lost.
today, i chatted with his mom.
View your entire conversation history with this contact
sue_1605@yahoo.com said:
kak...
syella said:
yes
ika
i waited for u dari 2pm..
hahah
sue_1605@yahoo.com says:
shila!!!!!!!!!!!!
syella says:
weewiit.. jap, ni sape? ika?
sue_1605@yahoo.com says:
emmmmmmmmmmmmm
lupa ke
syella says:
ah . mami ke?
sue_1605@yahoo.com says:
rasan
syella says:
a hha.. memang la mami kan..
a
sue_1605@yahoo.com says:
sape lagi
ika da alik
syella says:
a h.okay2. tadi die anta msg, skrg baru perasan
sue_1605@yahoo.com says:
tk keje/
ka
syella says:
niari off day pasal besok keje malam..ahhaah
sue_1605@yahoo.com says:
oic
syella says:
best kan..tapi skrg i kat np
sue_1605@yahoo.com says:
tahu tadi ikut
syella says:
ikot?
gi mane?
sue_1605@yahoo.com says:
ha tk tahu ja
syella says:
jb la ni kan??
sue_1605@yahoo.com says:
bukannnnnnnnn
syella says:
merayap? or rumah customer?
sue_1605@yahoo.com says:
customer apa lagi
syella says:
i punye cartoon ketawe,lagi cute..
mami da start maid agency eh?
sue_1605@yahoo.com says:
blmmmmmmmmmmmm
lagi sbk ada confinement
alik da mlm sian
syella says:
kesian nye.. relax..
tgh buat pe seh?
boring seh...
sue_1605@yahoo.com says:
apasal
ops mami lagi bual wit baba
dia dtng sini lagi talk 2
syella says:
.ok2
go talk.
i nak tanye pasal i nak amek course..nanti i forward kat u.
sue_1605@yahoo.com says:
ok course
explore is for ur own gd
keep it up
syella says:
BASIC DEPORTMENT & GROOMING COURSE - $450.00
Deportment (includes body language)
Personal hygiene
Figure control
Make-up for day and evening
Skincare
Manicure
Social etiquette
Fashion sense
sue_1605@yahoo.com says:
so u can b better person
mami pray for u
kata anak mak
e he
manicure ok but aft dah bgus jng buat jadi boss
syella says:
ahaa h
sue_1605@yahoo.com says:
cos mani n patdi u alway buat nanti ur hand prb
syella says:
ade make up class jugak
a
sue_1605@yahoo.com says:
coz byk my cstmer run all dat
come back to me kesian mami tengok
syella says:
tangan semua lembek2 kan
heee
sue_1605@yahoo.com says:
num
syella says:
PROFESSIONAL MODELLING COURSE - $650.00
Only graduates from the Basic Deportment and Grooming Course will be accepted
into the Professional Modelling Course. This advance course is structured to prepare
a student for an illustrious career as a fashion and/or photographic model.
8 classes of 2 hours each are held weekly, covering:
Catwalk technique
Photographic make-up
Photographic posing
Modelling
sue_1605@yahoo.com says:
skill no 1 can take
syella says:
yes.since banyak free time
sue_1605@yahoo.com says:
kan mami da bilang dulu make up artist is e best
can make it
byk org kawin guna kan
n if ada duit can run studio
syella says:
yes!
tulah.. ni die ade ajar everything
sue_1605@yahoo.com says:
ok if u rasa u can comit all tis ada safe jugak
all depent how u wanna run
e course pon tk m l okla
syella says:
duit nak run studio, i takde la.. kalau org stakat suro make2 up for wedding ke photoshooting boleh la share2 kan..
sue_1605@yahoo.com says:
boleh for first move
b urself
so frm der u learn
n b murtured
pape can talk to me feel free
no prb
syella says:
ada bim
sue_1605@yahoo.com says:
asalkan jln yng betul
bgusn
if u rasa i like ur mum
mane 2 im ok
syella says:
apa ini macam?
sue_1605@yahoo.com says:
apa ini macam
pe sey
syella says:
ahah. kalau tak, takkan la i tanye ur opinion..
i tanye my mom, die ckp topic lain
sue_1605@yahoo.com says: mayb dia tk phm
dia kan tahu nak masak2
syella says: pada die,duit tu save je..tulah.die tgh plan nak bukak kedai..tgh cari tempat.
baba kat sane? tgh buat pe?
baring?
sue_1605@yahoo.com says:
dia lagi bual luarkan perasaan sian
ok
bgus jugak
syella says:
alah kesiannye.. okayla. kirim salam kat baba. bilang baba tak perlu risau2 ke pening2. hidup jalan terus.. h
takya stop2.
sue_1605@yahoo.com says:
stop nafas tkda hee
syella says:
ha. jangan.
sue_1605@yahoo.com says:
beh nk camne
syella says:
i mean jgn stop2 to think fikir2..
a h
i ada gamba baru<
sue_1605@yahoo.com says:
u pray kan mami jugak
if wat ever mami run business
maju is gd
i wanna plan lain so u learn take it
syella says:
no worries. mami kan bagus in running business. semua org will pray for you so that everything will go smoothly
sue_1605@yahoo.com says:
so i nk u run yng mana stble for u 2
mami naikkan my to children so u pon my
mine
hope for e best k
tk mau blurrrrrrrrrrrrr
syella says:
jgn la ckp macam gini. mcm sedih je. jangan risau2. things will go smoothly ..
slowly.
sue_1605@yahoo.com says:
blur rabon tkpe jng lain
syella says:
a ha
naughty eh
sue_1605@yahoo.com says:
gd kan
people change one day
god bless
syella says:
hope for the best je. bismillah
sue_1605@yahoo.com says:
amin
da go sheep
syella says:
i nak cabut uban my mom.
u take care
sue_1605@yahoo.com says:
bsk mami ada custemer
syella says:
banyak
?
sue_1605@yahoo.com says:
u to kirim
smlm mami turun uma cik biba ur mum da alik
mami dtng lambat cos uma org dtng
syella says:
ouh.. i baru tau. i baru tanye my mom. my mom tanye u tak pergi ke..i cakap u pergi lambat.
eheh
okayla. mami talk to baba. kesian baba.. tgh sedih..heh. anything can msg
sue_1605@yahoo.com says:
dia da sheep pon mami pon b gd nite sweet dream
syella says:
hah. goodnight! yes sweetdreams. nanti i jumpe u dalam mimpi. tata
sue_1605@yahoo.com says:
muazk
syella winks:
Play "Kiss"
Rejected and Dejected
I'm at northpoint now. Was from Toa Payoh, helped nurul to run some errands. I just want to extricate myself from all problems thus asking my mom to meet me at causeway point but in the end we back to northpoint. the taxi driver had a tiff with another driver. Almost accident. I guess im used to it already. Im a lil bit fine now that we have it settled. I was stupid after knowing that i msged to wrong no. still, the decision have been made up.
i have no intention to meet him and talk about this. i always look up for him and always feel comfortable with him around and not other guys. they asked me out to join for supper, gaming and what else. but i give lots of reasons for not going. Now i want to make myself enjoy for a little while with him, rejected. even make me dejected. He wants to forget me fully. i can disappear first.
i have no intention to meet him and talk about this. i always look up for him and always feel comfortable with him around and not other guys. they asked me out to join for supper, gaming and what else. but i give lots of reasons for not going. Now i want to make myself enjoy for a little while with him, rejected. even make me dejected. He wants to forget me fully. i can disappear first.
unhappy
Im not used to this kind of living.I'm not a happy person. My life is similar to the drain.I feel so aggitate now. i feel im tied down. i feel like punching, i feel like screaming and i feel like shouting. oh my god. i want to be myself. everyone is asking. i can only cry. and shut up and run.
you and me
I was hungry and make myself an instant maggi. It made think of what we did when there's no food at night, do you remember? i tried to make your maggi to your taste, but i failed. this time round, i made it perfectly like yours.but time like this, make me cry cause you aint there to taste it.
you remember that morning. you were hungry. infact both were hungry.. i tried to fried rice with all veg to feed your stomach, it was my first and it turned oily. i was disappointed with myself.
now, im eating maggi alone and by myself with tears coursing down my cheeks.
after this i might be heading down to ecp to cycle as fast as possible.
you remember that morning. you were hungry. infact both were hungry.. i tried to fried rice with all veg to feed your stomach, it was my first and it turned oily. i was disappointed with myself.
now, im eating maggi alone and by myself with tears coursing down my cheeks.
after this i might be heading down to ecp to cycle as fast as possible.
two is better than one
It is nice to see everyone happy and smiling.
It is sad to see myself upset and keep weeping day and night for what had happened.
As wide as I can smile, is wider the sadness in my heart.
Now, i shall just hide myself. Feels like terminating my hp no and deleting fb.
It is sad to see myself upset and keep weeping day and night for what had happened.
As wide as I can smile, is wider the sadness in my heart.
Now, i shall just hide myself. Feels like terminating my hp no and deleting fb.
Sunday, March 7, 2010
what a life..
I felt like running out from the ward.
I expected this.
the happiness you have given me can't be compared to what my friends have given me.
times we shared our views, problems and even cried together. this never happen to any of my ordinary friends.
i love you too much that i couldnt hold back the tears and movement.
that was really a heart throbbing. i went home with tears, and wish that man would stab me like how he stabbed those ladies around yishun. that would end everything.
despite this, theres a wisdom behind this.
i always hope that you will be patient with me to be in this relationship to achieve our happiness as long as to live our love no matter there's difficulties.
haiz.
please make up ur mind..i miss you terribly.
i need a ride to ecp. i need a car and license.
I expected this.
the happiness you have given me can't be compared to what my friends have given me.
times we shared our views, problems and even cried together. this never happen to any of my ordinary friends.
i love you too much that i couldnt hold back the tears and movement.
that was really a heart throbbing. i went home with tears, and wish that man would stab me like how he stabbed those ladies around yishun. that would end everything.
despite this, theres a wisdom behind this.
i always hope that you will be patient with me to be in this relationship to achieve our happiness as long as to live our love no matter there's difficulties.
haiz.
please make up ur mind..i miss you terribly.
i need a ride to ecp. i need a car and license.
The one who could bring in my life is you but you had to leave.
My life couldn't be as perfect as everyone else. Mistakes comes and go. Be it learn from mistakes or likewise, reoccurance happens.The problem is me, why am i born in this kind of living? I have family, I have boyfriend and boyfriend's family and additional. That is my past from now onwards.
I have too many flaws that are easily noticed by others but not myself. I often rely on my boyfriend and his family to keep me alive. Can always see me at his house, mostly are after work or during off days. Shift work is really tiring when there's no one out there helping you and thus, you have to do it alone no matter what. The tireness could drag to longer period. Who feel it? Ourselves. I understand, when we are at people house, to share them love and so, we should make ourselves hands on, on those chores. I did, when? When there's no one around. When I'm not tired. Lethargic could be my problem. I often having back ache. Why can't people understand when I lie on the bed or floor, I have problems with my back.My mistake, not everyone has the same thought. I just came back from penang, I longed to come back singapore as I feel I was there just to help out looking after his siblings.At certain time, they held hands together and let the kids hands be free. I understand, they want their time alone. But not when they bring the kids along. The kids really didn't like seeing both of them smoking.I had no rights to stop. I go along with everything. Second day, they decided to head down to the pub, all agreed cause we can listen to music. But sadly, soon after we came, they ordered drinks which are not nice to drink in kids presence. One of them got really disappointed and chose to ignore her. Good thing was, she realise he didnt like it. Thereafter, I was asked to keep the kids accompanied in the hotel, what am I again? I had to gulped in my drinks and walked off..I was pissed too. Everytime, I need to be there accompanying the kids while you and ur bf were out.I thought you wanted me to have my time and have fun thus asking me to join.I wanted to share money for taxi fare , treating the kids and so but you don't seem to take it.. the next thing you know, you have shortage of money. Why can't I spend some for them since some of it is on my hand. The possible reason I heard from others is, jealousy for not being noticed. Sincerity of buying stuffs for others is not to get notice for it.He will still be your dad.He will still think you are good enough to bring them out of the island.What else is not enough.My clothes, I had no privacy with my stuffs let alone helping out with the cleaning. I wouldn't want to touch or keep anything for someone cause I might be accused wrongly.So after many days, you came about to tell someone about my stayover at your place.This matter, I could accept. I bring your family down cause people have been saying. Humans are like this.Why didn't you tell bf or me straight. Doesn't mean you have known me for a long time, you know me inside outside.What do you mean when you say true colours.? what have I been betraying? I didn't tell ur bf about your secrets.You went to visit your ex bf's house. and having crush with his friend. Have I spilled any beans yet? No.I keep your relationship save.but what happen to mine? I lost everything.
Everything that means alot to my life.The one could bring joy to my life.Decided to leave me again.As much as it hurts you, it hurts me deeper. In time like this whereby I have no one.I felt as though my heart has just been stabbed. I feel like doing it physically.There are so many things I want to do with you. I want to stay with you. My heart trembled and I broke down right infront of my patient.. this never happened. I have been joyful. What is my biggest sin that makes me to suffer this way. I would rather go pennyless than to lost my joy.Do i deserve this treatment, being cold, shiver and break down.I need to hug just you for the last time..the 7 years could be this short..and painful.I can't believe myself that you have known me very well to be with me but you could give up the challenge.where is the love that you onced given to me..
I pray to HIM to give me the power of strength to live cause I give up on life.I want to die during sleep on this very night.It either he fulfill or not.the last thing i want to do is be next to you.khayrul. since you want to see me in this pain. why didnt you meet me and pour all out since you say you want to end it like a gentleman.
Through this challenges, if a person really loves her, he would be there to go through hard time together. its the matter of how we settle cause at the end of it, we are going to live with our partner, regardless hard or easy time.Why do people see this to end?In life we have to take up the risk.Ive always tell myself that i can take this challenge as long as i know you can try to give another chance.
In life, there are 4 things you can’t get back. The stone after the throw, the word after it’s said, the action after it’s done, and the time after it has passed. So be careful of what you throw, of what you speak, of what you do, and of what you let pass by.
Sesungguhnya, apabila Allah s.w.t. itu mengasihi seseorang hamba Ia akan mengujinya. Dan apabila Ia mengujinya, sama ada dengan menurunkan penyakit dan sebagainya, Allah akan memberikan kesabaran. Dalam menghadapi cubaan seperti ini, kesabaran adalah paling utama. Sesungguhnya orang yang bersabar akan diberikan pahala mereka tanpa hisab (az-Zumar: 10).
Kesabaran dengan ujianNYA adalah penting. Kebahagian datang dari kesusahan.
Cabaran yang datang adalah ujian untuk melihat kesabaran seseorang.Sesiapa yang merosakkan kebahagian seseorang,mereka akan diuji dengan lebih besar dan berganda.Mengalah tidak bererti bersalah, mengalah adalah sikap kesabaran kerana sayang.
Rintangan yang melanda,cabaran yang akan meningkat.Hadapi dengan tenang.
I have too many flaws that are easily noticed by others but not myself. I often rely on my boyfriend and his family to keep me alive. Can always see me at his house, mostly are after work or during off days. Shift work is really tiring when there's no one out there helping you and thus, you have to do it alone no matter what. The tireness could drag to longer period. Who feel it? Ourselves. I understand, when we are at people house, to share them love and so, we should make ourselves hands on, on those chores. I did, when? When there's no one around. When I'm not tired. Lethargic could be my problem. I often having back ache. Why can't people understand when I lie on the bed or floor, I have problems with my back.My mistake, not everyone has the same thought. I just came back from penang, I longed to come back singapore as I feel I was there just to help out looking after his siblings.At certain time, they held hands together and let the kids hands be free. I understand, they want their time alone. But not when they bring the kids along. The kids really didn't like seeing both of them smoking.I had no rights to stop. I go along with everything. Second day, they decided to head down to the pub, all agreed cause we can listen to music. But sadly, soon after we came, they ordered drinks which are not nice to drink in kids presence. One of them got really disappointed and chose to ignore her. Good thing was, she realise he didnt like it. Thereafter, I was asked to keep the kids accompanied in the hotel, what am I again? I had to gulped in my drinks and walked off..I was pissed too. Everytime, I need to be there accompanying the kids while you and ur bf were out.I thought you wanted me to have my time and have fun thus asking me to join.I wanted to share money for taxi fare , treating the kids and so but you don't seem to take it.. the next thing you know, you have shortage of money. Why can't I spend some for them since some of it is on my hand. The possible reason I heard from others is, jealousy for not being noticed. Sincerity of buying stuffs for others is not to get notice for it.He will still be your dad.He will still think you are good enough to bring them out of the island.What else is not enough.My clothes, I had no privacy with my stuffs let alone helping out with the cleaning. I wouldn't want to touch or keep anything for someone cause I might be accused wrongly.So after many days, you came about to tell someone about my stayover at your place.This matter, I could accept. I bring your family down cause people have been saying. Humans are like this.Why didn't you tell bf or me straight. Doesn't mean you have known me for a long time, you know me inside outside.What do you mean when you say true colours.? what have I been betraying? I didn't tell ur bf about your secrets.You went to visit your ex bf's house. and having crush with his friend. Have I spilled any beans yet? No.I keep your relationship save.but what happen to mine? I lost everything.
Everything that means alot to my life.The one could bring joy to my life.Decided to leave me again.As much as it hurts you, it hurts me deeper. In time like this whereby I have no one.I felt as though my heart has just been stabbed. I feel like doing it physically.There are so many things I want to do with you. I want to stay with you. My heart trembled and I broke down right infront of my patient.. this never happened. I have been joyful. What is my biggest sin that makes me to suffer this way. I would rather go pennyless than to lost my joy.Do i deserve this treatment, being cold, shiver and break down.I need to hug just you for the last time..the 7 years could be this short..and painful.I can't believe myself that you have known me very well to be with me but you could give up the challenge.where is the love that you onced given to me..
I pray to HIM to give me the power of strength to live cause I give up on life.I want to die during sleep on this very night.It either he fulfill or not.the last thing i want to do is be next to you.khayrul. since you want to see me in this pain. why didnt you meet me and pour all out since you say you want to end it like a gentleman.
Through this challenges, if a person really loves her, he would be there to go through hard time together. its the matter of how we settle cause at the end of it, we are going to live with our partner, regardless hard or easy time.Why do people see this to end?In life we have to take up the risk.Ive always tell myself that i can take this challenge as long as i know you can try to give another chance.
In life, there are 4 things you can’t get back. The stone after the throw, the word after it’s said, the action after it’s done, and the time after it has passed. So be careful of what you throw, of what you speak, of what you do, and of what you let pass by.
Sesungguhnya, apabila Allah s.w.t. itu mengasihi seseorang hamba Ia akan mengujinya. Dan apabila Ia mengujinya, sama ada dengan menurunkan penyakit dan sebagainya, Allah akan memberikan kesabaran. Dalam menghadapi cubaan seperti ini, kesabaran adalah paling utama. Sesungguhnya orang yang bersabar akan diberikan pahala mereka tanpa hisab (az-Zumar: 10).
Kesabaran dengan ujianNYA adalah penting. Kebahagian datang dari kesusahan.
Cabaran yang datang adalah ujian untuk melihat kesabaran seseorang.Sesiapa yang merosakkan kebahagian seseorang,mereka akan diuji dengan lebih besar dan berganda.Mengalah tidak bererti bersalah, mengalah adalah sikap kesabaran kerana sayang.
Rintangan yang melanda,cabaran yang akan meningkat.Hadapi dengan tenang.
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